It all started on a mild spring day in February……
If ya’ll know me personally, You know this past year has been anything but comfort but hey, I’m getting there. Its all gone by fast but I want to take the time to tell some specifics about this past year and tell ya’ll HOW it all started…
So the kiddos and I always greet daddy Mike at the front door when he returns from work. But this day, He called to say He was coming home early! So with much excitement, the kids and I waited out curbside for him. We gave him hugs and the kids talked his ear off for the next 10 minutes explaining the various bugs we’ve caught, what they ate for lunch and how many times they pooped. But I noticed Mikes face not as ‘joyful’ as usual so I asked “How was your day?” His lip trembled as he took in a deep breath and said “I have something I need to tell you. My entire dept was laid off today, including me. We can either look for another job or move out of state but stay with the company”.
Ummm what!!? I felt sick to my stomach immediately. I got defensive immediately and said “NO! We’re not moving. My whole life i’ve lived here. I don’t know anything outside of Arizona.
Literally. We were still living on the same street I grew up on. In fact, my next door neighbors were my parents. And his parents lived just 5 minutes down the road. I could drive a car blind folded and backwards and still get from place to place perfectly. I spent 29 years in Arizona and could be a tour guide for that state. I never saw myself living outside of Arizona. I had no reason too. My entire family line lives in Arizona. I had everything I ever needed there.
We sat on the couch hand in hand, tears down my face while his remained confident that this would only be a small hurdle easily fixed with a new job. I was a stay at home mom with a photography business on the side however we survived on his income. At this moment in time, neither of us had a job but we still had a house, two kids and two cars that needed income in order to sustain them.
Within 24 hours, Mike had 3 calls from his company, all 3 were out of state, offering him great secure positions. Interviews were set up and it seemed to be pointing to an out of state move.
I was devastated. In denial. Angry. Scared. I was mad at his company so why would I even consider him taking an offer WITH that same company??!!
I hid in my room for hours. Even the thought of saying goodbye to my childhood friends made me puke. We were months away from buying a new house in Arizona. We had just registered our Son in Kindergarten days prior. In fact, to the same school I went to as a child. I was set to stay my whole life in Arizona. And I maintained my defense, making excuses on ‘why’ we HAD to stay and how horrible it would be to leave.
I called my parents bawling my eyes out. They let me vent my frustrations and my fear of leaving Arizona. Thats when they said these next few words that changed me forever, actually, my life.
“You need to live life for your Family, not for your comfort zone”. They were right. There are many things in life that are out of our comfort zones but when it comes down to a stable living for your children, us parents would do anything for that, right? Our kids depend on us. Sometimes we have to steer right instead of straight in order to keep our family and kids secure. We walk around with blinders on, too scared to ever try anything new. Its the fear of the unknown that can possibly hinder us from even more amazing opportunities.
I walked out into the living room and into the arms of Mike. He wrapped his arms around me, kissed my forehead and let me soak his shirt with tears. I looked up at him and said “Lets start this journey.” I could feel him take a deep breath, hold me closer and say “For better or for worse…..We will be okay”.
With that said, March 1st 2016, just 3 weeks after that mild February afternoon…..We packed up all of our belongings into a 28 foot truck, said goodbye to our childhood memories, familiar sights and smells, Sunday family dinners, coffee dates with our best friends and drove 1,000 miles to Fort Worth Texas. An entire state of “unknown’ where we would now have to call Home.